Thursday 16 February 2012

The Silent Cry



Stealthily walking around the enclosed room
Dressed in the handsomest clothes
Trying to corner me and have his way.
To take me to his palace of painless,
He has come.

I was promised my share of joy-
Small packets of happiness.
But was betrayed by you
I know not why.
You pushed me to the edge,
Left me unloved,
Wailing over the broken swear
I stood there all alone.
  
He may be dark and vicious,
No different than you.
Come right away and rescue me,
Before I come under his spells:
Never to return to you.

You may have broken promises ,
But never my heart.
I’m a flute, hollow inside
But has music within.
Waiting for you to create 
the lost melody of the past 
once again.
Save me, Oh dear one
From my own sins.
 Before he engulfs me,
 Show me your face once:
So could see those eyes 
before I go.

I need you to hold me the last time
Before he pulls me away.
Away from you, from your presence
To the land of the dead
And the damned,
For all eternity.

Wednesday 8 February 2012

A place to call my own



Sense of belongingness is something every human being craves for. Unless you belong somewhere or to somebody you are never complete. Normally, the place where you are born and brought up is the place you belong. The streets where you played as a child, the shops you would visit, the hawkers on the street, the locale of the school, the lonely tree- all these constitute the place you belong.

But what happens to a person who has nowhere to go, who has no place to call his?

I never felt that I belonged to the place I grew up in, Bangalore. Nor did I find solace in my birth place, also happens to be my father’s native, a small village in Karnataka. I was like a gypsy, a nomad with no place to call as mine. But, eventually I came to know how it feels to be belonged to somewhere. I found Mangalore.

Mangalore is a developing city in coastal Karnataka. It’s not as advanced as Bangalore, but for education, it’s a better choice. Unlike Goa, the beaches are not crowded with people you don’t know, with people who do not belong there. Mangalore can be his, who tries to strike a conversation with it, who strikes to look into its soul. Yes, amidst those Indian cities which are losing their old charms due to the new currents of modernization and development, Mangalore still has its soul.

It doesn’t mean that the city is not developing. It is, but in a different pace, in a different way. The people here have still not changed. If you talk to them, they respond you with all humility and modesty. You will find a friend in them or a long lost relative. One cannot get lost here, because you will always be found, by someone or the other and most often than not, by yourself.

Whenever I feel lost I just pack my bag and travel 400 kilometers to reach my destination- Mangalore. A weekend here refreshes me, rejuvenates me and prepares me for every challenge that life is going to offer me. Even if I go in the tourist season, I can escape into some place, which neither the tourists nor the tourism department has discovered. Even when I fail at this, I have the special ability to create my own world, my own hidden space though I’m surrounded with bustling streets and crowds.

Here, the waves of the ocean talk to me, the sand dunes amaze me with their volatility, and the breeze brings me the smell of the mud from the nearby village. My mother too studied here and she belongs to the same district, if not the city. This may also be the reason why I can relate to the city and call it my own.

So, here I am sitting in front of my PC letting my thoughts go haywire. But my heart is in the place where I belong.